hi! I'm Laura...

So, seriously.... why am I blogging? Well....I am unfortunately one of those people who can't get out of my own head and it kinda drives me crazy. I have so many thoughts about so many things swirling around in my head and I figured that putting them down on proverbial paper just might make it easier to deal with, and who knows, I might help someone else feel a little bit more normal in the process. 

Social media, while I love it, sucks for me. So I hate it at the same time. I'm not free to share my thoughts or feelings there because of the lack of boundaries I had several years ago.  

I was bullied into allowing certain people into my space that I didn't want there, so now I just don't delve into the things I want to so I can keep the peace and avoid the drama. 

Plus- negativity on social is frowned upon and let's be real- real life and the truth sucks sometimes and I don't hold back here. 

I'm here to do the hard work that wasn't done before me. 

I can't speak on social about the years of emotional abuse during my childhood & excessive drinking to numb the pain & hurt, and the hundreds of thousands of dollars in therapy bills I've racked up as a result. And if I do, I would still be made out to the bad person even though I've learned that none of it was my fault. I was a child that should have been protected. And I wasn't. 

So here we are. In a space that for the time being at least, I am safe & can be free to tell my story the way I am experiencing it without leaving out any backstory as to why I do the things I do and why choose the things that I choose. 

It'll get ugly and messy at times. It might be pretty and enlightening at times. It's absolutely going to get real more times than not. Hopefully you can relate. But if not, I understand. You can't possibly relate to everything since you're not me. But maybe we can find some common ground and go from there. 

Disclaimer- I'm probably going to talk about and do some things you don't like or agree with. With that- if you feel the need to be a Karen and tromp around on your moral high ground here, kindly delete this site from your browser history and my name from your brain. Thank you!

Also- I am NOT a medical provider or someone that can give medical guidance on ANY level. I am simply an average human that over-researches everything and likes to share what I'm into and what's helping me. I am not suggesting you do anything I talk about on this site. If you do- high five- but you made that choice on your own. ;) 

Let's begin.... shall we?